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i want to be beautiful. i want to fit into anything i put on. i… - Come find me under this frozen surface...

xxbemyescapexxMay. 5th, 2005 04:09 pm

i want to be beautiful.
i want to fit into anything i put on.
i want to feel my bones.
i want to be weak.
i want to feel small.
i want people to hold me delicatly
...in fear of breaking me.
i want to be frail.
i want to be envied.
i want to love me...
WHY is it hard!?
i wish i could refuse food.
i binge...
i want to hide.
i want to be SICKLY thiN!
YOU do not understand!
i want to stop eating.
i want push aside dinner.
But i am forced to eat...
i need to say NO.
Oh, but please don't worry.
i WANT to be this way.....

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Date:July 10th, 2005 05:19 am (UTC)
aw dat is soooo thinspiring. can i add u.


ps think thiin,
Date:July 12th, 2005 10:30 pm (UTC)
yes of course...please do! ill add u back. im glad u liked it:):)
Date:September 28th, 2006 07:53 am (UTC)

height- 5'7" measurements- 33-22-33 weight- 90 & lower...

this is me. beautiful, enviable me. the physical therapy is oh, so sexy- that is, if i could keep a potential mate from gawking at my brilliant greying teeth and heaving,protruding ribcage long enough to show how i am almost *totally* out of my wheelchair! ...my muscles have atrophied due to lack of nourishment...but i'm hot, damn it! look at me! i'm lean and COVETED with an awesome greyishyellow tan and have the ever-sought after "sunk-eyed pre-pubescent boy with a visable heartbeat" look while i'm cruisin around in my wheelchair or the newest in handi-capable fashion wares. if it only weren't for all the sickness depression, balding, anxiety, heart/lung/bowel/uterine/muscle deterioration.and this fine layer of hair on my body (lango) has grown in order to conserve heat because i don't have a scrap of fat on my body.oh, and going to the doctor at least once a week and swallowing about 16-odd pills a day. but to hell with my "upkeep"- i hear all the boys want to fuck furry box kites this year. *VERY* hot right now. sorry i gotta go brush my the hair..... that i *do*have left....for now!